My friends, I just can’t tell you how good I feel. After an extended illness or period of discomfort, feeling neutral, or even a little healthy, feels so, so good. So good. So very good. I appreciate the not-sick so, so much.
Yesterday included a stop at the transplant clinic, where I learned that my white count is a little low, my red count is still low but moving in the right direction, and that I have platelets to spare. All is well. I was dismissed until my next visit, the all-important 30-day checkup, after which all of my infection and behavior controls are lifted, and I am officially discharged from the transplant program.
Life I love you.
I am still tired, but I’m getting a handle on the ebb and flow of energy through the day. And I’m doing a lot…today, for example, I got up with the kids and got them fed, dressed and dropped at Sewusen’s. I went to the farmer’s market for the first tomatoes of the season (although, they don’t have that intoxicating scent yet…might be a few weeks away, still), did two loads of laundry, baked homemade burger buns, spent some time with Ginna, picked up the kids, and went to Pizza Thursday, our block’s weekly outdoor pizza-beer-and-juice-box soiree. Yes, I watched a few Cold Case reruns, and crashed at the end of the pizza party, but for a girl 24 days off a stem cell transplant, I’m doing just fine.
Right now I’m dappled and drowsy and ready for sleep, but it was time for an update, and it feels so good to have good news.
Love you all-
Jen
* Last night, as I was trying to fall asleep, I was contemplating the 59th Street Bridge Song, and got all caught up in the line “Got no deeds to do, no promises to keep” and how that state was making Paul Simon feel groovy, while a generation or so earlier, it was the state of having promises to keep that broke the spell of the frozen woods, taught by high school American Lit teachers as a symbol of suicidal ideation, for Robert Frost. Interesting. What does it all mean?

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July 10, 2009 at 3:46 am
Deb
First of all, I’m exhausted thinking about your day, and I’m not 24 days out from a transplant! Making your own buns? So impressive! don’t ever let my husband find out… Second, perhaps it’s b/c my Jr.High was named after Frost, but I was never taught, in all my years studying English (remember I have a BA too) that the woods were a metaphor for suicidal thoughts…. Frankly, none of my teachers implied that much depth into that poem as everyone fixates on Fence Mending and Fire & Ice. A very interesting perspective. I wish we were still doing book club. So happy to hear the groovy feeling — love you!!!
July 10, 2009 at 1:11 pm
suebear37
Great news, Jen! So glad you’re feeling better & have more energy!!!
July 10, 2009 at 8:07 pm
Cuzn Meg
Great news – keep up the good work and overachieving – that’s how we know you are on the mend, in addition to the counts etc. I am just back from Denver visiting Bik and family, plus cousin Sue at her cabin in the beautiful Rocky Mountains. Remind me to head out there IMMEDIATELY the next time some magical healing is needed. Love you much, Honey. Meg
July 11, 2009 at 1:49 pm
Kim aka kwormann
Hello Jen
I am so glad you are doing so well! You are an inspiration!!
July 12, 2009 at 2:54 am
kae
and miles to go before i sleep. for you too.
xo
July 12, 2009 at 1:46 pm
Patricia
Yay Jen! So glad to hear that you are feeling better. You do way more in a day than me : ) Homemade buns? Incredible. Take care.
July 15, 2009 at 1:50 am
Julie Matthews
Hey Jen…Sounds great!!!!!!! I was so happy to read this post. When you have more energy, the whole world seems brighter. But no matter how much energy you have, don’t be ashamed of taking some time to relax and watch some “Cold Cases”!
I saw that Dr. Harpham commented on your previous post. Her article about fatigue was included in a bunch of articles that Seattle sent me a few months ago, and it’s really well-written. I bought her book “After Cancer: A Guide to your new life”, and it looks like a wonderful reference. PS I checked out the recipe and those hamburger buns sound delicious!! So glad to hear how well you’re doing.