Amidst the whirl of the season, the shadow of this scan tomorrow was crammed to the back of my mind. But in the last lazy lost week, sitting home with a cold, wanting to stay busy but just lacking the energy to do much, I’ve been a little tweaked out.
sigh.
Anyhow, I just would love some hugs or prayers or whatever between now and Wednesday morning, when I should get the thumbs-up from my doc. Really. It’s going to be good news. But still…
tick. tick. tick. tick.
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January 4, 2010 at 3:57 am
Josie
I am thinking of you tonight. Be brave.
January 4, 2010 at 1:07 pm
Rebecca
Hi Jen–it’s beckms from the CLBB. I am keeping my fingers crossed for a clean scan tomorrow and forever.
I am not a cancer patient. But I do have a chronic illness, autoimmune hepatitis, that necessitates frequent bloodwork and doctor’s visits and the daily, HOURLY obsession with the “what ifs”. Because my body could revolt at any time, become refractory to my drugs, and go to town on my liver and I live in fear of needing a transplant someday. And Meanwhile I feel perfectly healthy and have to take all of these stupid drugs to depress my immune system and it makes me so ANGRY.
Anyway, the purpose of this comment was not to rant or unload my sorrows on you, but to let you know that I totally get the niggling fears that hang in the back of your mind no matter how great life feels at that moment. And I am wishing you the very very best.
Rebecca