T-minus 18 days until my next scan. And so much to look forward to between now and then! Christmas parties….gifts to wrap….feasts to cook….cards to send…..twinkling lights at which to gaze. But tonight, I can’t sleep, and I have spent the last hour Googling post-stem-cell transplant blogs, and I keep coming across sites that have been abandoned because the bloggers have died. Seriously. I know better than to fall into the late-night-google trap. I’ve been here before, but I’m out of Ativan and Peter’s out with his geek buddies and, well, I’m feeling dark.